Life's hard for all

Misery loves company they say

But is it the misery the person wants to share

Or are they looking to someone for help

But instead bring them down too

Is the misery more infectious than the need for help

Or does the person just not want it enough

Personally I think I would rather suffer alone

Than to bring a friend down with me

I don’t want my friends and family to feel like this

I wouldn’t want anyone to feel like this

Like the whole world is sitting on my shoulders

just waiting for them to make the wrong move.

Waiting for them to slip

Waiting for them to pull someone in

Waiting for them to not be alone

So they will share the misery

I don’t want to be infectious with hate

I don’t want to put bad things in peoples mind

Id much rather put in light and love

But where can I start

To get back to that person

That everyone loved to be around

The person that was infectious to laughter

The person that loved others and at least liked herself

I guess I should start at the beginning again

And try to learn a new way of dealing with my sin

Instead of storing it away and letting it fester

I need to let it go and pray that it will work out in the end

Because id much rather love myself and help others

Than hate myself and essentially drown them

I don’t want to feed them the lies that I believe

That im not good enough

That I’m not worthy

Because we are good enough

We are all worthy of love

And not the misery