Life's hard for all

Depression is a hard thing to live with.

One of the hardest is trying to explain it to others.

So here is to me trying.

Depression Is a dark and twisty place

Its when your inner thoughts are gray and black

There is no light

There is no white

Just gray or black

The gray is sad but bearable thoughts

This is where you look back at what’s wrong grieving the way you handled it

Wanting to do something to change it but can’t

These thoughts i think are easier to voice

To seek help for ask someone to hold you accountable

To try and continue your life

The black well that is the worse

The dark and the bleak

These thoughts are much more dangerous

These are the thoughts that keep you imprisoned in your mind

Keep you in the bed for days

Give you the feelings of why even try?

These thoughts are almost impossible to voice

The darker the thought the harder it gets to talk to people

The harder it gets to seek help

And the harder it is to continue anything in life

Somewhere between the gray and black there is a turning point

From being sad to wanting to crawl under a rock and die

I’m not sure where the begins I just know that’s where it ends.

But surely there is a way to continue life looking towards something

Instead of looking back at the past If you can get there that’s when you can see a light

It starts off small almost like a dot

For me trying to find that dot is the hardest part

Trying to find something worth looking for the dot.

But once I find it I plan on holding on to it.

Because the dot will eventually grow It will become the light that I seek.

I just have to hold on a little longer.

And keep looking ahead